Love

My husband Chris and I just got back from a really wonderful vacation in Puerto Vallarta, Mexico. It had been two years since our last and given all of the change that has occurred in both of our lives this time away was needed. The joy is that we were ready for it. Embraced it and enjoyed every moment. When I look back on what my health state was like this time last year not knowing if I’d have a “normal” speaking voice again and knowing I could no longer sing in the way I knew I was absolutely devastated. I didn’t know what depression was until then. Not really. There were indeed days where I couldn’t get out of bed. Believe me I wanted to but I just couldn’t. On those days I would say to Chris that I can’t get out of bed and his simple reply was always, “Then don’t.” Eventually, I immersed myself back in reading books by Pema Chodron, among others, on healing. Listening to lectures and dear dear friends lending their compassionate ear to listen to a friend who was going through a storm. I will always be grateful. When my father transitioned in March it felt as if I was ready for the grief that would come. I know you are never ready for grief, and I was not even though I thought that I was. Once I allowed myself to acknowledge the passing of my father’s energy from this earth and released the pain, anger and weight of it I began being able to breathe through it and simply allow the feelings to come and eventually go.

This is why I wake up and go to bed thankful each day. What I learned is our time here cannot be taken for granted. Love while you can. Be there for others and let them be there for you. I am so glad that I did.

I hope you have a wonderful day.

peace and love to us all