In June of 2017 I received a third opinion diagnosis of having a neurological condition called Spasmodic Dysphonia. Also known as laryngeal dystonia, it is a disorder in which the muscles that generate a person's voice go into periods of spasm. I could go on about this but after three rounds of botox injections to my throat, my last one being November 2017, I regained my ability to speak without spasms and can speak clearly again.

I share in my blog a bit of my journey to regaining my voice. Blog. 

It was an intense journey to say the least. My doctors have told me that I am 1 of 3 people who have had this kind of turn around without surgery. I wake up grateful everyday. 

Last Fall I attended a dystonia support group and met such beautiful and brave people. 

Weekly Reiki sessions from September through May with Reiki Master Steve Nunley of Portland, OR along with EMDR therapy with my therapist provided enormous help to me. Along with the love and support of  dear friends, family and the thoughts and prayers of so many. I am forever thankful. 

It took me a bit to realize that I was grieving, not only for what I thought was the loss of my "voice" but realizing my father's life was soon coming to an end.

After three years of battling cancer he passed away peacefully in his sleep on March 12, 2018. That same morning is when I regained the ability to speak clearly again.  I don't know the miracle of why but I am grateful each and every day.

My musical theatre performing days have come to an end and I am okay with that. I am grateful for the shows I was so fortunate to be a part of. From RENT to Come From Away.

It did take some time to fully believe that because I’ve loved performing in shows my whole life, but it’s really great to now focus on how it all works. I am in a place in my life now to look at this all as a blessing.

Because. Yes.

The depression was real.

But I am thankful each and every day to be on the other side and to feel good about myself again and this new life. 

For more information on Spasmodic Dysphonia here is the link: National Spasmodic Dysphonia Association

Love and peace to us all.